Why don't I pray like this?

I know of few people who's theology is so rich that it overflows into prayers as such: 

"Grant that I may be salted with suffering, with every exactment tempered to my soul, every rod excellently fitted to my back, to chastise, humble, break me. Let me not overlook the hand that holds the rod, as thou didst not let me forget the rod that fell on Christ, and drew me to him." 

Success is not necessarily a confirmation that you're in God's will.

At least it wasn't for Jeremiah.....

"..I have become a laughingstock all day long; everyone mocks me. For each time I speak, I cry aloud; I proclaim violence and destruction, because for me the word of the Lord has resulted in reproach and derision all day long." Jeremiah 20:7-8

I wish I understood God and the gospel the way Puritans did.

"Break the fatal enchantment that binds my evil affections, and bring me to a happy mind that rests in thee, for thou hast made me and canst not forget me. Let thy Spirit teach me the vital lessons of Christ, for I am slow to learn; and hear thou my broken cries."

The Awakened Sinner. The Valley of Vision. A collection of Puritan Prayers and Devotions. 

What I mean when I say I like flowers

I prefer to delight in the complexity of flowers than the delivery of flowers.